Yo quisiera enamorarme, pero no puedo

♪ ♫ Bad Bunny - Tití Me Preguntó ♫ ♪

TEMA Fashion suit  //  Cosmic Chains earrings (find them here)  //  Carpisa bag  //  CCC Shoes & Bags ankle boots

photos by Nataša

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Zdravo, ljudi! Srećan nam početak proleća s malim zakašnjenjem! ♡ Nadam se da uživate u lepim sunčanim danima, znam da meni baš prijaju! Pre svega, želim da vam se svima zahvalim na čestitkama povodom mog novog posla, to mi stvarno puno znači. ♡ Iskrena da budem, tržište rada je katastrofalno u ovoj zemlji i mnogo je teško naći bilo kakav posao, a kamoli neki s normalnim uslovima rada koji je pristojno plaćen. Ja sam čitavih deset meseci bila bez pravog posla, radila sam honorarno/frilenserski i sigurna sam da mnogi od vas znaju kako je živeti u konstantnoj finansijskoj neizvesnosti, a troškovi su vam ogromni. Najzad sam imala sreće da mi se pruži prilika koja me istovremeno motiviše da se trudim i daje oslonac da čvrsto stojim na nogama. ♡

Ne znam koliko to možete da vidite na slikama, ali pojavilo mi se još sedih u odnosu na prethodne godine. Prve sede su se pojavile dok mi je tata bio u bolnici na lečenju od COVID-19, i nažalost nije preživeo. U celoj toj agoniji nisam samo dobila sede, već sam i smršala za ceo konfekcijski broj jer mi je bilo muka od same pomisli na hranu tih petnaest dana. Godinama nisam podnosila svoje sede jer su me podsećale upravo na taj najtraumatičniji period u mom životu, ali počinjem da učim da ih prihvatam kao deo sebe. Velika tuga je zaostavština velike ljubavi koju gajite prema nekome ko više nije tu, i jako sam zahvalna na tome što sam barem tih 27 godina imala tatu. ♡ Mnogi su svog tatu imali mnogo kraće, neki se svog čak ni ne sećaju, a nekima su očevi bili toliko užasni da im je bilo bolje bez njih.

Da se vratim na sadržaj posta - definitivno moram da ulažem više u izgradnju svog poslovnog stila sad kad moj novi karijerni put podrazumeva šetanje između kancelarije, nastavnog kabineta i laboratorije. Odela i slični kompleti su mi definitivno na vrhu te liste, mada je ovo odelo koje bih pre ponela za neku svečanost ili prilikom izlaganja naučnog rada na nekom kongresu. Obožavam interesantne krojeve u kojima možete da zasijate bez mnogo aksesoara, a ovo odelo s poluplaštom koji podseća pomalo na indijsku/južnoazijsku narodnu nošnju me je oduševilo! Pustila sam ga da govori samo za sebe uz minimalističke detalje, talase u kosi i klasičnu šminku i mislim da mu nije potrebno ništa više od toga. ♡

Možda vam naziv ovog posta, kao i pesma koja ga prati, deluju kao čudan spoj s ovakvom odevnom kombinacijom, ali mi se ta pesma mota po glavi još od Super Bowla i mnogo sam je zavolela! Takođe, predlažem vam da je poslušate i, ukoliko ne govorite španski, ispratite prevod njenog teksta - ne verujem da sam jedina koja može da se poistoveti s onim o čemu govori.

Iz ličnog iskustva vam dajem ovaj savet - ako vam neki muškarac kaže da ga ne zanimaju veze, da se ne zaljubljujete u njega i da nije spreman da "se skrasi", ne ubeđujte ga u suprotno. Verujte mu. Koliko god da vam je privlačan na početku, nemojte misliti da će se zbog vas predomisliti ili promeniti. Ako ne možete da se nađete na istoj talasnoj dužini po pitanju toga šta želite od odnosa, ne zadovoljavajte se njime. Na duže staze ćete videti da vam ne može/neće dati ono što tražite.

I na kraju, izvinite na podužem postu, nadam se da vam neće biti mnogo dosadno da ga čitate! Mora da je razlog tome što sam se sad ovoliko raspisala to što sam u 2025. objavila samo PET (!!!) postova za godinu dana. Potrudiću se da se javljam češće jer je ovaj digitalni prostor nešto u šta sam mnogo uložila i jer mnogo volim ovu zajednicu. ♡ U međuvremenu me zapratite na Instagramu i TikToku gde možete videti još sadržaja koji kreiram. Čujemo se uskoro!

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Hi, guys! Happy beginning of spring with a little delay! ♡ I hope you're enjoying the beautiful sunny weather because I feel rejuvenated! First of all, I'd like to thank everyone who congratulated me on my new job, it really means a lot. ♡ To be honest, the employment market is catastrophic in my country and it's so hard to land any job, let alone one with normal work conditions and fairly paid. I haven't had a full time job for ten whole months, I've worked part time/as a freelancer and I'm sure that many of you know what it's like to live in a constant state of financial uncertainty and have huge expenses that need to be paid. I was finally lucky to get an opportunity that motivates me to try my best and provides me enough stability for me to stand firmly on my feet. ♡

I don't know if you can see it in the photos, but now I have more grey hairs compared to previous years. I got my first grey hairs while my dad was in hospital sick from COVID-19, and sadly he didn't make it. In that state of agony I not only got the grey hairs, but I also lost weight of an entire dress size because the thought of food alone was making me sick in that fifteen day period. I couldn't stand my grey hairs for years because they were a reminder of the most traumatic period of my life, but I'm starting to learn to accept them as a part of me. Great grief is a legacy of a great love you have for someone who is no longer there, and I'm so grateful for the fact that I had a dad for at least those 27 years. ♡ Many people have had their dad for a shorter while, some don't even remember their dads, and some had such terrible fathers that they are better off without them.

Back to the post - I definitely need to invest more in upgrading my business style now that my new career path includes being at the office, classroom and laboratory. Suits and other sets are definitely at the top of my list, though this is more of a suit I'd wear to a formal event or at a congress as a presenter of a case report etc. I love interesting tailoring that you can shine in without many accessories, and this suit with a semi-cloak that kind of reminds me of Indian/Desi traditional clothes has blown me away! I let it speak for itself with minimalist details, waves in my hair and classic makeup and I think it needed nothing more than that. ♡

Maybe the title of this post, as well as the song that comes with it, seems like an odd match with this outfit, but this song has been living in my head rent-free since the Super Bowl and I like it so much now! Also, I suggest you to give it a listen and, if you don't speak Spanish, read the English translation of the lyrics - I don't think I'm the only one who can relate to what it's about.

Let me give you a piece of advice from my personal experience - if a man tells you that he's not into relationships, tells you not to fall in love with him and that he isn't ready to "settle down", don't try to convince him otherwise. Believe him. No matter how attractive you think he is in the beginning, don't think that he is going to change his mind or his ways because of you. If you're not on the same wavelength when it comes to what you want from a relationship, don't settle for him. You'll see that he can't give you what you're looking for in the long run.

And finally, sorry for such a long post, I hope it won't be too boring for reading! The fact that I only published FIVE (!!!) posts for the entire year of 2025 on this blog must be the reason why I needed to say so many things. I'll do my best to write here more frequently because this digital space is something I invested so much in and I also love this community. ♡ In the meantime you can follow me on Instagram and TikTok as well to see the content I create outside of this blog and post there. Talk to you soon!